Sometimes when I feel the somber sentiments, it's out of gratitude and out of grief all at the same time, because so many people died believing in me. An example, Brother Doug Beecroft was a sweet old man I had the privilege to meet in his geriatric years right before he retired.
You see, I lived a few miles far away from Antelope Union High School in those four years invested. I was curious to know about the LDS Church and Ward because of my prior experience with the advertisement on tv when I lived in Yuma.
Anyway, once at Antelope, some of my acquaintances, whom I consider my peers, seemed to have the confidence in their faith that let me see their behavior.
Some Mormons were very kind to me without me even knowing they were of Mormon faith, such as Caleb Tillou, and others had a bit of religious pride, and some were very rude within their own esteem behaving with prejudice.
It didn't stop me from continuing my path and journey in getting to know my Heavenly Father, thanks to my Lord Jesus Christ. I continued to live my life minding my own business with so much freedom from above, by Gods Grace.
I’ve been directly ministered and instructed by God's Spirit and the Holy Spirit, becoming as one in me. The Lord Jesus Christ removed the veil and allowed me to see my Heavenly Father’s Love for me as he is in him so I became one with them, I served as if I served the Lord himself. God took compassion of my heart and family.
I shared my heart with the best (my best) and with the loves of my life, my very own children. In the year 2006, my world was shaken by a mental disease. The same year, I was ministered by Edwin Villa from Shoot High Entertainment, after the UFO sighting.
He said, there was more scripture than just The Holy Bible. You see in my world, the foundation of my faith is based on the Old Testament and the New Testament.
The LORD ministers directly to me loud and clear, his son became my mediator and intercessor, my companion along with my husband and three children as a U.S. Army family party of five a single unit.
Thereafter, unexplainable bizarre moments came about, such as my spiritual emergence. I didn't understand why my peers on MySpace behaved a certain way. But I knew I was and remain in the right with God.
He is faithful, always, and I felt safe with him and with my family, regardless of how the outside world and cyber world appeared to have been. In my home, we serve the LORD and we chose and choose to serve the Lord of Hosts.
The bizarre moments continued and I had to trust my faith, my convictions, and my God, and the war was raging against me, but I know God has been making way for me.
In 2009, I began to go to the Wellton LDS Ward, and I sat through Sunday after Sunday and partook in Sacrament and experienced Relief Society.
In 2010, with my personal convictions and testimony, I merged into the religious organization, after I saw how, my LDS friends came to my parents home where they knew to find me, and how they dared say "We need you in our Church."
They loved to hear me preaching the Word of God. They accepted my Spirit, and I was grateful for that, and I'm still appreciative, because I didn’t know them by name but we knew and know Heavenly Father knows all of his children by name (my anonymous LDS friends were snowbirds).
I became temple recommended and attended the Gila Valley Temple dedication. I didn't have an issue shining my light, with those who appreciate me. On the contrary, I felt like maybe there is no perfect church but if I can practice the LORDs instructions from within others will see him in me, and we can glorify our Heavenly Father, together.
I came on here, to recognize, I chose brother Beecroft to baptize me as a member of the LDS Organization, because, honestly, there was nothing better for me to have done for myself in a time of forced isolation (and not by choice).
In this world, it's hard to fit in and be appreciated for the light that reigns in me. One cannot live life for another nor for others, I must live accordingly to my name. You see, I met my brother Daniel Padilla, thanks to the same force. We shared the Kingdom together where all my needs were met.
And although I was manhandled by the police officer and by force stepped into Mountain Health and Wellness, I know now, I've been living under the influence of this Force to get me to the place where I’ve need to be, where by now all my needs are to be met.
My brother Daniel Padilla is a king in the kingdom, he is caught up in his own spiritual realm. We’ll catch up in this lifetime as one again in spirit and in truth. It takes time and all need time to work internally and let the force take its course.
For the sons of gladness know there’s is no law against the Fruits of the Spirit and Faith cannot be boxed in, nor contained as a matter of fact, the Force will try its hardest to shrink you in to being conditioned, but Greater is the Spirit in me than he who is in the world says the Lord.
In the book of Life it is written, God is Eternal and God of the Living, for it is written let the dead bury the dead. Come and follow me. Our names are written in The Book of Life.
Obviously, feelings are involved in God's Kingdom, for His love endures is eternal, resides and abides within the confinements of his precepts. And as I know, testimony matters, it is a fact, and essential for Spirit to reign with God as one governing body in Christ. Testimony is, so much more than honoring your father and mother, in honoring the Spirit of God. Testimony is, a reflection of the persona's true self as the invisible Spirit of God, and the Holy Spirit, in union with GOD. All is good works, in the Kingdom producing the fruits of the Spirit. 
