Problem Solved.

I hated Louie in those moments he would and I'm quoting the words, "and how does that make you feel?" when trying to correct what needed to be corrected. He was always cold and all insenstive speaking out of brains GRRRRRR... He was underestimating my emotional intelligence and the problem was enough to problem solve as an inside housework and just because he had training from the U.S. Army against sucicide prevention and he was and is medically a professional, he automatically assumed I was hurting and or upset and assuming he was not responsible nor had a fare-share in it, when all I was just trying to do is point out the situational problem, to just problem solve, at our eye-level as husband and wife, both of us knowing he was my sponsor and husband and me as his spouse and dependent. There is a formulated solution to workout differences we all know that. And you know keeping it simple is important. I'm the teacher and my own three child’s’ primary caregiver and provider since birth. Certainly I’ve had and have a say in my own life next to him and next to my own children, them altogether. On a good note, "what can I say" in the words of 'Stan the Man' our realtor in San Antonio, TX, from Millers Ridge. I was very upset in those moments of  "and how does that make you feel" throwing his punch line to box me in, dude I played PUNCH-OUT with my Nintendo!! I'm the SHRINK OUTSide the Box... Can't box me in... still upset, I'm human and still trying to problem solve. To be a peace maker by problem solving is part of my benelovent behavior, with my own independence for the simple feel good and feel better cause, as a result of "and how does that make you feel?" for an honest upright change. And as we know, for decency, not everything is fixed in bed.

Word of Wisdom, Discernment is Power

There is a difference between unconditional-love and unconditional-motherly-love (which is essentially the one that matters). There is such a love as that of Pure-love and Self-love. There is such love as True Love. Thre is such love as that of Agape. They all matter, Love is Love and Love are Love's... Scripture helps to discern which type of love you choose to be in God's court, the Heavens as on Earth. It's okay to be so as long as you know you must set your own limits... The word of God is essential to establish those boundaries.

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The Sentiments, Jeepers Creepers

I wish I had someone physically next to me, to connect with and share my heart with, right here right now at this time, and maybe even talk it out and over the phone... I'm in emotional anguish, I feel so alone and perhaps shouldn't feel this way but I do. I am human and my level of intelligence, I get offended by short minded and short sighted way of thinking from another especially from those I love and I know they love me. Especially when in my heart I know how to love myself in a healthier and better way, but it is dissapointing to know it is all up to me, alone. I do miss my higher self and here I am again, crying like a baby. I miss my HEAVEN on EARTH, LORD. I miss myself vibing with my own klan, my family, call me selfish but it is as it is and it is what it is... I have a loving family. They are my all English fluent speaking family, my Isaac, Emily, and Lysette. I miss the best of me, my life and the modest esteem having it all and lacking nothing... To feel financially secure and emotionally secure is one to the best feelings on Earth, knowing God is who supplies and provides daily is heavenly. I miss me. And although these words are simple fragments of the sentiments I hold within, we know with God there is more meaning behind the words. The mysteries of the Kingdom remain within and are mine to keep. I claim everything that is mine, everything godly for me, and everthing that belongs to me, back to me, in Jesus Name. Amen.

On March 13, 2014

The Wellton Elementary School's Librarian! :)

LDS by the Wolfpack showed ...

There I was sitting in the McAllen Public Library visiting my work and boom all of a sudden two elders from the lds organization show up with their mentor and then boom two more decide to ambush the area... I forgave them for speaking in Spanish around me and looking white as snow in the presence of my carmel complex, when the last two of the wolfpack, when showing up speak in English! Good God. Yes, Brother Beecroft endorsed me on Indeed and I also allowed him to make me a member of the organization... All this when he was still alive back in 2010. We are well into 2022 and counting... Thank God, but I must add, we're all in this together when we now are all facing more than what we can handle collectively, with challenges at the world wide covid19 situation amongst the already knowns social problem at homefront, human behaviours, on social media, and on ground level.