On March 13, 2014

The Wellton Elementary School's Librarian! :)

LDS by the Wolfpack showed ...

There I was sitting inside the McAllen Public Library visiting my online work and boom all of a sudden two elders from the lds organization show up with their mentor and then boom two more decide to ambush the area... I forgave them for speaking in Spanish around me and looking white as snow in the presence of my carmel complex, when the last two of the wolfpack, when showing up speak in English! Good God. Yes, Brother Beecroft endorsed me on Indeed and I also allowed him to make me a member of the organization... All this while he was still alive back in 2010. We are well into 2022 and counting... Thank God, but I must add, we're all in this together when we now are all facing more than what we can handle collectively, with challenges at the world wide covid19 level amongst the already knowns social problem at homefront, human behaviours, on social media, and on ground level.

Stick'en to My Beliefs

No longer there, but I stand firm on my beliefs and will not be moved nor waver, Jesus the Christ in Me is King over My Life and World. Few of my classmates... AUHS Alumi Class of 1998... Sabina Filerio, Sandy Geronimo, Hilario Alonso, Hilda Montoya, Reyna Espinoza (that's me) and Melissa Archuletta... All together for the photo on GRAD Night!

Proud of my Salutatorian!

Ever had a butt chew... Hahaha... sounds funny now, but not so then! Just saying... On another note, I Care to post this video of my son at his Salutatorian Banquette Recognition. A nice fine banquette for his academy top 10, Class of 2018!

I love my family.

I miss my family sooo much... our silence and space together has never been an empty space... we've always been busy, the sound of love together. Haha, I remember the first time we got our family cellphones... we text Isaac dinner was served... haha he was in his room working on his academics and we all laugh because we decided to text him versus the knock on his door to let him know... How about the time, we message him, go to bed! hahaha... I miss those little precious moments with my own son,family... I love you my all. Oh, I remember my personal heartbreaking moment, when I realize my son mentiones 'my cellphone is a paperweight'... I thought, since Louie handed him his own phone, he had full access to a phoneline (his minutes were always on a budget)... My heart broke because the whole time, I thought my dad and Isaac, were in constant communication... You see, my dad his grandpa Efrain, Sr., would call me and to tell me that he has and had been trying to get a hold of his own grandson, Isaac. Contacting me was most likely out of frsustration for my dad, now I realize instead of placing my son on the phone, I would tell my dad, 'Isaac has his own phone dad, call him'... I think I misunderstood my dad or maybe I wasn't all there thinking right... It was sad to know, but when we got our family cellphone plan we made sure we stay in touch, all around without neglecting priorities. And then, boom! Work, work, with the school work and the more work... Too much technology and cellphone can be an added inexpense and distraction all around if not used for what is intended... An example is from Angelica's Mom and attitude from The Rugrats...

Maná - "Mi Verdad" a dueto con Shakira (Video Oficial)

Self-Love

When Louie met me, I was a college girl. I became a fulltime college student and working at one of our local gorcery stores, in the Foothills out in Arizona. I had been working there since my high school senior year and prior to meeting him (Louie the father of my child/ren). We actually met at the Civic Center in Yuma that one Sunday night and then shortly we went on our first date and it took off... It was an smooth transition for me after high school graduation to go into the dormitory life as a fulltime college student on my own with the help from one of the College Directors. Anyway, after Louie and I dated, he got to meet my roomate and some of my peers, we both seemed happy to be together were we met in life, and later to be found happy together in life, as husband and wife. He got to meet my grandparents in Mexico, he was very accomodating in that aspect then, he loved to please me then... I have no regrets, I'm proud to have been a college type of lady for myself, in his life and for our future, when we shortly afterwards I did get to marry, what I thought to be the perfect guy of my dreams... For sure, I was happy, we concieve together our very own child, Isaac with God's blessing. And of course, I was only able to trust Louie with my very own life for a time, until the sun went down on his wrath. Even after the many forgiven opportunities, thanks to the love that held and holds us together, Isaac, Emily, and Lysette, I had to choose me at the end of the day. I don't regret not one bit of our story though, together we did become one and I don't regret going to a higher power kind of love, in the form of self-approval and to seek his blessing with the intention of self-forgiveness, for choosing myself. Therefore, in essense I sought for self-validation and approval in the eyes of a Higher Power kind of Love. I call it, Agape Love. It was essential for me to forgive myself after I had said enough, and with my no more, I did the unforgiven by walking away from what appeared to have been non-sense to me. It has never been nor was it ever my intention for it to be an indefinite to say goodbye to and from my own heart who they are my Isaac, my Emily, and my Lysette. I just needed a safe place, time to gather my strength, and comeback stronger than ever for them, they need me and Elena says so since 2006. They are worthy of a healthy and strong mother and I am worthy to be their unfiltered mother.