Sentiments, Romanticism, and Enlightenment

My heart betrays me, as I sit and reminice on what a beautiful life I was gifted to live with Louie, the father of my child. I remember the many sleepless nights when he worked graveyard shift in his ER days at BAMC. As I sit awake, but feel as if I am sleep walking... I can't help but to think, I am awake when my body is forced to stay awake, but deepinside of me, I know I am asleep. This is a very meloncholic estate of being. It feel like somber sentimental sentiments surging in me while I try to stay conciously aware when I just want to rest by sleep.

Reminiscing...

We all know I am and I've been known to be a successful person in my daily life. Whenever, my family needs something I was at the beck and call. It all started between their father after I left my parents home in Arizona, when and as he served in the US Army, and we all knew it was about us, my family and we all grew in love. I lived for those moment, you know those last minute moments when your child spontaneously says or calls out of the blues with a 'hey, mom can you... ' or the famous 'I have papers for you to sign, Mom' and my favorite, 'Mom can you volunteer at school?' Yes, for them it's all YES... hahahahaha... and GRRR to those moments as an adult you hate, but as a parent, you appreciate... They're genuine and priceless moments in the making... and how about the time Louie forgets to wish me a happy birthday, but late in the evening my son saves the day as they both return with piece of cake and together wish me a happy birthday, that was special, thank you. Any way, I did love the fresh unexpected flowers from time to time... And there was this one time, my son Isaac asks me to email or perhaps asks to send him a picture of him standing next to his Mentoring Music Teacher, Edelir... I like to consider Edelir a family friend, and is family to me (he spent quality time with Isaac). Anyway, for some odd reason, the internet at home was down and after I consult with Louie and confirmed the internet bill is paid, it was out of our hands, so I practically drive out to Mc Donald's parkinglot to use their internet WiFi and honored my son's wishes, since it was an urgent matter. That is a perfect example of the famous 'beck and call' phenomenon... to know what you're willing to live for, its in those moments, that you know you can be trust and you know they can trust you to meet the best desired outocme all around. I was born, to serve my own family with the good and for the better, they can trust me and I can trust them. We are worthy to honorably serve one another in the same likeness, they are my very own Integrity. I love my family, no matter what, and I am happy to know that at this time, their happiness has been my own... so as long as they honor thy father and mother in the same likeness as so as long as the Sun shines on planet Earth. My family is my family, flesh of my flesh and blood of my blood.

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The Gospel of Jesus Christ is True

I have had spiritual experiences that I seldomly talk about, I'd rather talk about the Gospel of Jesus Christ to comfort those in need and to comfort my own heart. You see it is written, anyone who preaches another Gospel other than that of our Lord of Jesus Christ is the least in the Kingdom. It has been important for me to remain of in Good Faith. It is upsetting in the form of grievence to know of the secret mysteries in God's Kingdom. You see, you can have all the manifestations of God all around and one can expreince the many spiriutal highs but if we don't seek within, where the Spirit of the Lord reigns, we are nothing at all. We are like a hollow symball, an ocean crashing wave, a seed planed that need to be nurished. So, at times when the memories arise and the moment is present and so far way from the ones that matter other than myself, I do shed a few tears, I do feel the tugging of the love I hold within. I do hold to heart the wonderful moments I expreienced next to my greatest blessings (my own precious children). I am healing as I type of the turth I can testify with my very own life in this moment. God is good and I am blessed to witness his mercy towards me. He says his grace is sufficient and I belive it has been true and therefore is true. I am gracious at all times when I see it and when I don't because I know I am loved by him who has said my grace is sufficient. I am loved beyond all measures because I know there is no law against the fruits of his Spirit, his love for me and towards me, after all he said and promised to me, we are sealed because he first loved me. I am his and he is mine, I am for him because he says he is for me and not against me.

Healing Journal Entry

I think I've realize why I've been in so much emotional pain (I call it angony), when I have every reason and hold everything within as a human soul can possibly have to be on Earth. I am a blessing and blessed to bless with two wonderful loving parents, that I miss and I hope to be with again to stand next to my two siblings. I am the oldest out of three, I have a younger brother and baby sister. A tie of a blessing with my own children, as we know, I have a loving husband we have three amazing children together that are constantly reminding me not to give up the good fight, to find my way back to them, you know to internally match our internal vibrations as before, when it was all good and we know it's not our fault, it's nobody's fault for keeping on living life, that is the purpose of time to make the most and best out of the gift of life on Earth as we pay it forward with our priorities and perfect matching behavior by give testimony of Gods love for us on Earth while we are still alive to testify in spirit and in truth. After all we all hold the key within to reunite, as intended with Higher Power, as One-Big-Happy-Family. I'm also the gifted auntie of a precious nephew, Ezekiel Bravo so we know Gods work on earth is everlasting and unstoppable. And I know, that although we are all protected and living together under our American Flag and under God's Sovereign hand under his will for honoring his name, we all Exalt him, thanks to the Great Sovereign Spirit and Sovereign Powers of the Sovereign God. I know God wants us all to live in Harmony. No one truly knows me for me (for Who I AM) and that has been my greatest pain, perhaps it seems like noone trully knows me because honestly, my children are a reflection of me with my best, we have fulfilled. Its true, you can have all things in the world even the Lords greatest gifts, talents, and blessings, but if you have no love for another you are nothing at all and I've feel like nothing at all, so I know the feeling of emptiness. Then I begin to count on them (you know count my blessings) and I realize I am my parents daughter, my siblings oldest sister, my husbands wife and the mother of three... the auntie to Ezekiel. However, being all alone, to some I appear to be able and capable of living in these conditions away from a loved one, to another I am willing and able to sustain all of the pain on my own,to another I am in their way as interference and hard to control, condition to manage. To another I am overqualified and so to another I am not qualified to meet standards. However, I do know this, I am not living, I am but I appear to be living in the shadow of my own heartfelt desires the my many attempts to be love, loving, and lovable. And I know I have not and cannot give up on my own and on my (two common sense) account, after all I am a dependent. I am pushing for my breakthrough and for good and for all, perhaps a miracle. If the word of God is alive in me surely it is alive in someone else who can meet my end and see me for me and just appreciate me for who I am and who reigns in me.